Happy Birthday To Me!!!

Friday the 8th of June is my penultimate birthday to 50, meaning 49 years completed and i enter the 50th year. The 40's have not been that productive or exciting for me when compared to the lastlast half of the 30's which was probably the best time of life so far. i have partially created a lot of stuff that i can finish in the next year if I win the battle with myself then i need to get it out to those who might appreciate and support me. Entering my fiftieth year reminds me during this past decade i have succeeded in paying child and visited my boy in LA 3 times and paid for him to come here once. My sister paid for him to come here one other time. I completed a novel in my 41st year, i have produced six booklets (about 25-40 pages a piece) of my poetry and short stories and one of writing on Buddhism, a website (http://thoughtfuloutsider.com) devoted to Tantra, a yahoo newsletter group with about 600 members and to which i have written about 300 pages of writing on Tantra (http://groups.yahoo.com/group/esoteric_tantra/). 6 years as a cab driver and $15,000 of debt, and some photography that I'm proud of. Well now that i think of it i take back the comment about lack of produdtivity, but i stand by the lack of excitement comment this for me refers to the absence of a solid relationship since the beginning of the decade (the occasional fling though) and my greatest wish of being FUCKING FAMOUS or at least well known. i haven't felt free.

here's to my fifties i expect it to be the beginning of the best half of my life

TW